Balance

I’ve been thinking a lot about balancing life and working at home and unschooling lately. It’s a difficult task with unschooling because I’m always wondering whether I’m spending enough time with the kids. When they ask to do stuff, I try to be accommodating, and I try to engage them when I think of something in which they might be interested, although often that just falls flat and I wonder why I went to all the trouble.

 

One problem lies in when I am working and my 8-year-old busts in with something interesting and DH is busy with the little girls. Unfortunately, I can’t just stop working because I have to get enough hours in each week to keep the household going, so it’s tough. I think it will be easier when my littlest one doesn’t need to sleep with me all the time and I can get up and work early when DH is also working. In the past, however, when DS was little, I tried the whole getting up early thing, and the whole cosleeping/nursing thing ends up with me going in and out of the bedroom so much that I don’t get anything done, so I might as well get the sleep, you know?

 

It’s also a matter of trying to fit in things I like to do as an adult as well, such as reading, writing, and communicating with family, friends, etc., over the computer, and the things I should be doing more of, such as exercising J I tend to feel selfish/guilty when I just want to veg in front of the computer during the day or in the evening. The question is when is it too much? Sometimes, I think I should just leave some of my responsibilities and hobbies (photography/scrapbooking, volunteer work, writing) by the wayside for now to simplify my life.

 

Maybe I’m just thinking too much, but that’s just how my mind works.